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Thoughts after Twelve Years in One Place

Devotional Thoughts for this Day

My friends, even though we have a lot of trouble and suffering, your faith makes us feel better about you. 8 Your strong faith in the Lord is like a breath of new life. 9 How can we possibly thank God enough for all the happiness you have brought us? 1 Thes. 3:7-9 CEV

Like homing pigeons flying home, like iron filings drawn irresistably to a magnet, like solar flares falling back to their parent sun from which they had sprung, lovers of God become one with the fire of their Beloved. The twentieth-century British poet Stephen Spender wrote their epitaph: “Born of the sun, they travelled a brief while toward the sun and left the vivid air singed with their honor.”
That is what a Christian is. Not to be one is life’s only real tragedy.


Twelve years ago today, two friends, I knelt down and my District President installed me as the pastor of Concordia Lutheran Church in Cerritos. A few weeks before that, the church had laid to rest a beloved retired pastor and his wife. Within three months, I would bless the graves of another couple. And over the years, there have been a lot of deaths, people that had become not only parishioners, but good friends. There has also been trauma that scars one deep, and ministering to those broken by such, has been commonplace. Enough so that prayers start ascending every time the phone rings, or a text message beeps.

It would be lying to saying this has been an easy time. It would also be lying to say this time has not been a huge blessing. My devotional reading this morning explains why:

It is all about the faith of the people I see, a faith that is lived out in the midst of trauma, in the midst of sacrifice. A faith that keeps coming back to God, must as Kreeft’s pigeons and iron filings being attracted to their “home.” There is a joy in this, even amidst the shared tears. There is a confidence, born out of the Body and Blood of Jesus in which we share, that even the tears are somehow beneficial.

The ability of people to depend on God in this time is what lifts me up. Just as it did Paul, to see people being sustained by God, to the point where they are ministering to others during their own trauma, is the best feeling a pastor can observe. It is what sustains us, as we see the effect of them being drawn back to God.
This is how, after 12 years, I can look to the future.
Knowing the response of those to whom I remind, “the Lord is with you!”
And knowing they are right when they answer back, trusting in God, “and also with you!”

Lord, as we go through these days, help us to continue to help each other, trusting You to show us their needs, and empowering us to meet them. Help us set our own brokenness aside, help us to leace it there… knowing You are healing us in this time. We pray this, in the Name of the Father, and the Son and the Holy Spirit! Amen!

Peter Kreeft, The God Who Loves You (San Francisco: Ignatius Press, 2004), 93.

The 20th Anniversary of my Death

I don’t remember much of the day, driving up into LA in my old little mazda  626 – getting ready to open the bookstore I was just promoted to manage, walking down the hall to the print shop.  Didn’t feel quite right – but put it down to nerves…new position – nearly impossible situation –

Waking up several days later, in Good Samaritan Hospital – the burn scars from the defibrillations still freshly marking my chest.  I had flat lined 5 times, each time they cleared the area and wham!  Hearing I was going to have a defibrillation unit implanted into my abdomen, wondering how my life was going to change.  I didn’t see any tunnels with lights, didn’t hear anyone tell me to “go back”….just woke up.  To anxieties, worries, fear…

I try to look back on those days, I’ve blocked them mostly out, except for the incredible example of my wife and my boss – finding laughter in the midst of stress. Of the three questions I kept asking over and over, and people answering them.  Just writing this blog is tough.

But it is causing me to rethink my ideas of life, my plans, and maybe – this time, I can keep focused a little longer,   Maybe on something as simple as this….

3:8 Yes, everything else is worthless when compared with the infinite value of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord. For his sake I have discarded everything else, counting it all as garbage, so that I could gain Christ
Philippians 3:8 (NLT)

If there is one thing these 20 years.. and the times lying in hospital beds have taught me, it is not that this life is too short – rather, it is too long to endure, without knowing Him, His love, His mercy, His peace.

May we all cry out for His mercy and presence, confident of His answer…