Are You Experiencing a Spiritual “Monday”? Do You Feel God isn’t There?
Devotional Thought of the Day:
25 But I know there is someone in heaven who will come at last to my defense. 26 Even after my skin is eaten by disease, while still in this body I will see God. 27 I will see him with my own eyes, and he will not be a stranger. Job 19:25-27 (TEV)
235 Don’t complain if you suffer. It is the prized and valued stone that is polished. Does it hurt?—Allow yourself to be cut, gratefully, because God has taken you in his hands as if you were a diamond. An ordinary pebble is not worked on like that.
Ignatius describes the pattern of life as one where we move from being aware of God’s consoling presence into times of desolation, times where we feel abandoned by God. The latter times are when we cannot easily recognize His presence in our lives. It is a devastating feeling. It’s the Spiritual equivalent of a month of Mondays.
It can wipe you out, this feeling of darkness swallowing you. Satan may try to convince you God doesn’t exist, that’s he a fable. Or failing that, you might struggle with your past/present, sure that some sin weakened you so much that God can’t even heal you, that His mercy isn’t enough to save you.
You may feel like St Josemaria’s diamond, being polished and cut, yet unaware of the precision that God is using to create in you a righteous spirit, a holy priest, a blessed child and co-heir of Christ. But even knowing that doesn’t stop the pain and feeling of abandomnet and loss.
So how do you survive these times?
Job’s focus was eternal. He knew the promise of God, that God would save Him. That even in death, in HIs body He would see God.
Knowing God, knowing God’s ultimate desire does that. This intimate knowledge of God doesn’t ease the pain or the grief by eliminating it. Instead, knowing that promise helps us to realize the emptiness is temporal, and isn’t our reality. St. Paul saw this as well,
2 Keep your minds fixed on things there, not on things here on earth. 3 For you have died, and your life is hidden with Christ in God. 4 Your real life is Christ and when he appears, then you too will appear with him and share his glory! Colossians 3:2-4 (TEV)
So are you stuck in a spiritual cycle of Mondays? You are defeated, for you are Christ’s, and nothing can separate you from His love. Patiently hold onto the hope that Job and so many others testify to, that when we see God, He will be not be a stranger.
Escriva, Josemaria (2011-01-31). Furrow (Kindle Locations 1179-1182). Scepter Publishers. Kindle Edition.
Posted on December 14, 2015, in Devotions, The Furrow and tagged abiding in Chirst, practicing the presence of God, spiritual depression, spirituality, St. Josemaria Escriva. Bookmark the permalink. Leave a comment.